Goddess of Sacred Evolution
I was able to get in my head recently, the name of the deity or being I found one time when visiting with a friend’s friend, and staring into the angel on her Christmas tree. Over time, an image of her came more clear to me, as well as the kind of deity, and her name. The name is, Sarusiel.
In my mind, this name associates with “saru”, which means “monkey” in Japanese, and “ciel” which is “heaven” or “sky” in some European languages. The image that I get from these words, is similar to this quote by Terry Pratchett, ignoring the human-centric language:
Humans need fantasy to be human. To be the place where the falling angel meets the rising ape.
In the name are those two parts, angel and ape, and those also are reflected in Her body, the phoenix wings, the monkey arms. Part of the nature of this being is the bridge between heaven and earth… you could think of Her as a guide for becoming, transforming, recognising the ape in the angel and the angel in the ape. Trying to become more, reaching new limits. Becoming arrogant and daring to wear wings to fly to God and become God, if that is what you want. Icarus would be welcomed by Her, Prometheus is honored by Her. Anyone who brings light and knowledge to the darkness is honored by Her. No punishment from this deity for being too proud. She is all about pride, strength, showing your self with the light of the Sun. The Sun is one of Her symbols, and She is everything that you see in the Sun tarot card… bold, clear, Fire energy that lights up dark areas and shows knowledge, that burns with glory and confidence and a living spirit. The Sun too, is seen as a masculine energy in many religions and, She has joy in being a Sun deity who is female appearing, because She is all about new things, not accepting the old ways.
She is about not being afraid to be who you are, take what you need… and, if you are afraid, She will push you down the path that destroys your fear. She is about showing you the sides of your self that you have ignored, or pushed away, and making you see them. She can be gentle like a warm summer’s day, but any time serving with Her will always burn in the end, because she forces you to look at the truth. She does not tolerate the person who will hide from their own nature, or say, “I’m not good enough for this”, or would draw any lines between gods and animals and humans, saying that everything has one place and nothing is allowed to step over these lines. She has a joy in some kinds of blasphemy, because, She wants the mortals and the gods to be one, but, She still wished to be respected. She also just wishes that you will respect your self, as you respect Her. Instead of making Her high and you low, or Her low and you low, She wants you to join the high place with Her, worship Her and worship your self who can become Her. She is evolution and life energy and making you move forward, because all living things move forward, all living things change and grow and learn and you are alive, you are allowed to learn, you are allowed to change, you are allowed to become. Just because you are in ape skin, does not mean you can not grab the heaven in both hands and have it for your self.
Sarusiel is a contradiction of things and joy in opposites coming together, like the old alchemical gods. Sun energy in a female body, wings on a monkey’s back, mortal skin and immortal phoenix fire. She reminds that just because you are one thing, does not mean you are not also the other. People who defy the traditions, who defy the binaries, who defy the idea that “everything is this or that”, who find knowledge in their own hearts instead of looking for it in the words of others, these are sacred to Her. She loves haunted spaces and spaces that have a “between worlds” feeling, because they are not one thing or the other. They are energy and change and possibility and She is all about that, all about what is possible and what could exist and making it real.
An example of how She works: one thing that She showed to me, is that She is a deity of the Sun, and I should look for her in desert places, desert ordeals and rituals. I am someone who has difficulty to accept desert magic, being a cold climate animal. So, this is the way that She makes that part of me to grow: by revealing Her self in a form that I relate to the Sun, and deserts, and encouraging me to find magic and wisdom there.
Words from Sarusiel
Other gods will promise you redemption, but I am not here to give you redemption. I am here to show you the path to your own redemption. Because, you can not buy the future at any price. You must make it, with your own hands.
Other gods might tell you, sit back and believe in Me. I will do all the work you need. But, there is no path to My wisdom that does not come through your own mind, your own heart, your own discovery.
I do not promise that if you devote your self to Me, your burdens will be lifted from your back. My path might bring you many burdens. But, they are the burdens you need, to help you grow. And when you have learned how to triumph over them, you will live a life free of burdens, yes.
If you wish to.
The one who follows a path with Me, might find that they always want to keep climbing. The greatest joy is found at the top of the tree, and always there are higher trees to climb.
You might think, this does not sound comforting. Why begin on this path? What is there for me?
That answer, is the same as the answer to why humans decide to learn to make fire, instead of waiting for lightning to fall.
Because you can wait for magic to happen, or you can make it.
Symbol: A gold circle medallion decorated with a sun
Animal: Frigatebird, monkeys and apes, phoenix
Day: Monday, a day of new beginnings
Herb: Chili peppers. Peppers are Her sacred plant and can be used in rituals to Her, eating them before you let Her possess you, then dancing, the sweat and heat in your body will help you connect with Her. Cinnamon also can be used to represent Her.
Offerings: Sarusiel likes offerings that are creative. She is pleased with offerings that have some modern or new part to them (like offerings made using a computer, etc.), as long as you respect it is a real offering and put real energy, and don’t get lazy because of the technology. She believes that if you are willing to use devotion, a modern offering using technology can be as meaningful as a traditional one, but you must make it that way with your own energy. Like many gods She also enjoys wine. She also likes shared offerings, situations where you give something to Her to honor Her as a deity and also you honor your self as the deity you can become. Body painting your self as Her, for example, and using that to honor Her and honor your self at the same time.
Color: Gold, red
Picture: Beautiful commission of Sarusiel by suncalf
She sounds an awful lot like Lucifer =]